 | {Face & Head} I'm going to start with a photo most of you all are familiar with. I decided to not try and take another head shot b/c I'm not very photogenic. I mean seriously, this was a fluke. It took me forever to get it! LOL! Let's see on my face I would have to say I really like my eyes and lips. Ppl say I have a pretty smile. I have no problem now with how I look but I don't put much stock in it b/c a great deal of my life I was picked on and called 'ugly' b/c everyone said/says I have a big head. I believe that has something to do with being born premature/underdeveloped and having to spend 3 months in the hospital. For so long it messed up my perception of myself. I was beginning to believe it at one point (the opinions that I was ugly). The power of words. But with the strength of my spirit and my desire to live and make my mark on the world before I go & God's help I fought back from what would have been a long stint in the black world of depression, self-hate and insecurity. Now ppl tell me that I'm pretty or beautiful. I don't think one way or the other about it. |
{Neck & Collarbone} I shot this one b/c it is one of my favorite parts of my body. I receive lots of compliments on it. I must say out of all the ways that my body is, I'm of the opinion that my bone structure is quite nice :) |  |
 | {Breasts & Arms} I put arms on this one b/c let's face it, how am I going to take a hot pic of my arms! I can't leave them out either. As far as arms go, I'm pleased with them. They're slender but as it is that I'm getting older and lax on my exercise of them, they aren't as firm as they used to be. Which segues perfectly into my breasts. (beads of sweat) I've had to do some major acceptance lately. There was a time since their altering that I didn't want to even think about them. But as it is, change or no they are still apart of my body to be loved. I CAN NOT say I love my entire body except this or that part. The change I'm speaking of is the fact that they used to be a large, firm 36C cup. I and others, enjoyed them immensely. But since I've had children and breastfeed and all that, they lost some of their size and firmness. This is the reason I can write I about it in my work. It was a deep thing, the change of them b/c when u are young and ripe and all of your new curves are plentiful, you don't think about any of that changing. As I said above with ppl picking on me until I developed quite suddenly and volumptuously alot of my perception and confidence in myself rested in the image of my body. When I had less of that to rely on, I had to either lament about it or keep pushing and realize I had to find a way to allow my personality to shine through. I had to become who I was spiritually, mentally and emotionally to replace my physical dependency. Now short of paying to get fake ones, the only other choice I had was to accept them, love them. I'm still enamored of my nipples. I would've pictured them here but I think that would've been too much for some ;) I'm a real stickler for being natural so I believe I'll leave them as they are and buy the proper undergarments that will make me still look hot in my clothes! |
{Stomach} Another one of my all time favorite body parts! LOL! During my teenage years you'd have been had pressed to catch me with a full shirt on :) Thanks to God, damn good genes and some exercise it hasn't changed much since then, even though I've given natural birth to three children. What u can't really see here are the smattering of light stretch marks I have on the lower left side. Thankfully they are very light and short but they are there. Most likely they always will be. I truly don't think there will ever be a cream or miracle potion that will make them disappear. Although the question is do I want them to or not? hmmm... What u can kinda see are the pinpoint holes I have beneath my navel (innie) that I garnered when I was born. I was told I had many tubes running through my body. Subsequently the ones I had here left their mark. |  |
| {Back} Okay I think my back is sexy though it's prone to breakouts at times because of stress (not lately). I love the curve in it. That curve is caused by the fact that we have scoliosis in my family which just means our spines are curved instead of straight. Whatever the reason, I think its asthetically pleasing. I look at my back and remember how much weight has been put on it in the past ten years. so much baggage, physical and emotionally, that I've carried with me. Heavy shyt that it took me a long time to learn how to give to God and let Him instead of my sexy back (eyyyy!) handle my burdens. |
{My P-rivacy} I know some of you are disappointed but ya'll know I couldn't do that! lol! If ya'll read my blog "Pretty Pussy" it summed up how I feel about her. I take good care of her and have never allowed her to be abused by many cocks for the sake of fuckin'. I value her worth much more so than that. I choose to enjoy her. The look of her with or without hair, her scent, the feel of her inside and out. I like it when she receives alot of much deserved, skilled attention :) I think every woman should treat her pussy as God says we should treat our parents: with respect and honor. |  |
 | {My Azz} This is a difficult one for me to reveal. It's the second half of the reason why I considered myself ugly growing up. I know that u all see some lovely, brown toned humps. It still is that. It's never been considered small, if u know what I mean, and has gotten me so much warrented and unwarrented attention. Still does. It has taken me awhile to embrace it because of what u all don't see. (deep breath) I have burn scars on each cheek that I obtained when I was 2 or 3 yrs old. I don't know the precise story of how I obtained them, as I've heard different ones but they are there. When I was growing up they were hideous, dark, hard circular shaped marks that marred what would have been a perfect behind *smile. When my ass began to grow and gain alot of attention the fact that those scars were there put a break on being able to enjoy it. It was always in my mind that the thing ppl admired so much would probably make them blanche if they actually saw it. It is a very real reason why I didn't have sex until I was 19. Not the only one though. As the years have gone by they have been healing slowly but surely and are not as much of an eye sore as they once were but they are still there. Throughout my life I've learned not only to embrace the things about myself that I considered "flaws" I've learned to really accept it and enjoy it about other ppl. Scars for instance, on myself and others, are merely stories to tell. As long as we lived to tell them, then the scars themselves shouldn't have as much power to make us self-conscious. |
{Legs} I truly like my legs. Although I accept and embrace all of me, they are the last great favorite of mine! I used to run track in school and they have certainly maintained their curves and toned look and feel. I do alot of walking so that helps also. I just think they are hot. And please believe I show them off whenever the chance presents itself.. these pics don't do them as much justice as I would like but you get the picture! ;) Even the scars I had on my knees from when a boy pushed me down in the third grade didn't change my view of them. They just rock! |
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 | {Feet} How beautiful are your feet in sandals! (the Song of Solomen) I think my feet are cute. My brothers always used to pick on how small my toes are but hell it could be worse! I like it when my toenails are painted either red or pink. My feet at there finest. Behind the look of them, I am reminded of how many miles I've put on them through necessity. When I was struggling at my hardest, I walked many miles with my children all over Atlanta on these very feet. I remember how much pain they've been in. How tired they've felt. Ah well if you're slated to do alot of walking in this life, may as well be on these cuties! lol! Oh and I can't forget my skin..I simply can't leave this out. I'd rather have brown skin than any other so pleased am I with its particular color. No offense to any other. I am so thankful that God saw fit to create me as a Black woman, trials, tribulations and all. I'm going to walk tall and confident in it every day of my life.. I hope my very candid and scarily revealing slideshow of my body helps at least one young woman in her acceptance of herself. I believe there are so many obstacles for women in this life that our image of ourselves, if they aren't good ones, can be the most damaging block of all. If anyone asks why I've revealed all of this about myself, as it is that I am not famous or what have u, my motivations come from, as I stated before, the strong desire to have my life mean something. To make my mark even if it is a small one, though I don't accept that. So if it means I have to reveal my hurts, humiliations, vulnerabilities or differences to help someone else, who hopefully in turn will do the same. If that's all the fame I attain, then I will consider my mission accomplished. And should I acquire fame, I want ppl to always see me as a human being prone to misteps and on an continuing journey of enlightenment & personal growth. |
