.....Who am I? I know there will be those that are visiting from Myspace. You who know my work and a bit about the author. Some of you have read my bio but that really isn't who I am,totally. So many have asked, why erotica? Usually I tell them, well that's just what came naturally to me. That doesn't really cover it. Let me take you all back to my childhood. This may seem odd to some but I have always been drawn to sexual images and energy. And apparently I've always exuded a sexual energy. I would say boys have always been drawn to me in that way, to wit they were, but I must amend that to, people have always been drawn to me in that way. I saw my first young man's penis when I was young. No, molestation or pedofilia though. I had my first sexual 'instance' around the same time. No intercourse just cunnilingus. Even at that age I could appreciate how good it felt. Since that time I began to 'seek' out things that were of a nature of sex. I found "dirty" magazines that were meant for the trash. I took note of how looking a pictures of people in various stages of undress and in various simulated sex positions, made me feel inside. As I got older, around 13 or so, I snuck and looked at my parent's porn as often as I could or watched Cinemax after dark on the weekends I was unsupervised. Seeing those images was not foreign to me. I wasn't shocked, nervous or uneasy about it. It was like a study for me. Like when people study science or psychology. Still a virgin, those images stirred up desires in me that I had yet to know. But I knew, once I made the choice to expend that energy on someone, exactly what I wanted. For instance, nothing I ever saw was taboo or repulsive but I was definitely attracted to bondage and S&M. The idea of being dominated was so appealing to me. A man who could top my own strength, physically and mentally. How very orgasmic. Being a person who had been treated in a manner that made me repress who I truly was most of the time made me an open minded woman. I never wanted to make anyone feel the way I'd felt or treat anyone the way I'd been treated so I've learned to accept everyone as they are. Being a open minded person left me open to sex and all the ways that it's enjoyed and described. The more I know and engage in it, the more that energy grows inside me and the more I want to know. Now, even more than the actual act I'm addicted to the power of it. The energy I mean. I've learned to harness it and then unleash it in large or small doses on whomever I choose for whatever reason I choose. I don't use it to manipulate....just persuade. I can be whomever my lover or I wish to be in any sexual encounter. As a lover I can submit and dominate. My desire is to please them completely, utterly to best of my ability or anyone's that's come before me...or may come after me. That's the perfectionist in me. Or perhaps just my desire to be the best. If I don't love him, perhaps it's a desire to conquer. If I do, maybe it's a desire to dazzle. Having that energy born to me and cling to me like my own skin, molded itself to the gift already making its presence known. Before then writing was a chore. A job I had to work at that produced mediocre results. When I submitted to writing about what was innately inside me, it came as naturally as breathing. Even as one who hadn't 'fully' experienced sex my work made a lasting impression on those who had and those many years my senior. Although back then I was writing because I could. Now I do it because I have something to say. Even in the, well I should say, especially in the avenue of erotica. Though now, as then, I am not yet fully intergrated in the partnership of marriage, yet and still with my values, ideals, experiences and talent, my work is still making an impact on the lives of those who are. I hope to continue to do so and even more than this. I open myself up like this to you all in hopes that the example of my life will inspire others to drop some of their inhibitions and reach for the greatest pleasure created for us on earth with the one they love. We only get one chance. I want you all to know me as a writer but also as a woman. To know me as the woman I am and the woman I will strive to be until the day I die. Perhaps I will inspire some as the bible says, to "give themselves to their gifts". Open yourselves up to what moves you because it is doing so for a reason. Shake the fear. It's an obstacle that we place on ourselves. I know you all were hoping to find the book here for purchase but I promise it will be soon. It will be done as an e-book and all of what's in it hasn't been seen. I will use this site to answer questions and blog about topics and what's going on at any given time. This is just a beginner site. The site of my dreams will have video of myself and much more. I have the desire to be close to my readers because I have a great testimony and in every area of my life I want to give it to help anyone, everyone that I can help, teach or inspire. Stay tuned for more. ~Kisses |   
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